How do you Proclaim that which ( IS )… without wanting to be Noticed…
How do you lift your Heart to the Lord after spitting in his face a Thousand times….
I ask of this in such Shameful remorse to His Light and My Fall from his GLORY…
I fell from his Grace By my own…and like Everyone Blamed his LIGHT and asked why this was being done to Me which I had done to Myself…
Our Lord does not do Evil But lets the Flowing River run its course…
It begins with such un-noticable trivial things that we justify with ignorance…
That it was OK to spit on his Love…
I remember the day like it was a moment ago…
Everyone else was doing it and Why should I not be able… to Be Less in his Love like everyone else…???….
My Heart Cry’s for such a thought of niave ignorance that I wanted to be as Little as the rest in his Wisdom…
I was innocent and accepted Darkness into my life…for a Penny…AGE is not a Factor…
I was at about 3…minus the 58×58 life times of failure to his Righteousness…
I saw Evil …Stealing candy by the Handful…and I took one penny candy…in the first step of my own ignorance…
As those around me filled their Pockets with Shame… I felt 1 piece would ….not be missed and I would be no worse then those around me….
I SEE…this now… as compairable to a Murdering Bank Robber’s Justification…
A Penny is not the Value of this Disgrace…nor is it less then compairable to a murdering bank Robber ….
But the Justification to My Own Will… To My Fathers Love that broke My Trust of his Heart in My Path…Did not make this Sin any less on any level…Then the Sin it was…
Either it (IS) or it is (NOT) but it is not (MORE) or (LESS) Then any other Transgression…
And then I SAW the Truth of…Redemption..Was not a Word of ( Forgive ME ) or ( I’M Sorry )…But was in the Works of LIGHT in My Life To Others…
How many Life Times did I waste before I saw THE TRUTH…?…
How Many Times did I waste My Breath…in empty words to his Love…
As I Stated with conviction… FORGIVE ME FATHER — OR — I’M SORRY LORD…..
Then Kept walking down the same Path of Ignorance…in A Crowd of Darkness like it was OK…
To wash the Blood of Light from My Hands…To Keep Hammering the Next Nail of his crucifixion in Darkness….
For 3,364+ years he asked me everyday take my hand…and I replied with the same Excuse.. I am not the one…YOU are confused with your choice of me…I am not the Spirit you seek…I am not worthy of such a Place…Next to you…
When Betrayal took ALL my Trust in the Light…and I found Myself in Darkness…
I asked if He would accept My VOW TO BE HIS SERVANT IN LOVE FOREVER
And I felt his LIGHT Fill My Soul with EverLasting Life…As I took his Hand in My Vow…and he replied…This is why YOU ARE THE ONE…
In his Wisdom,,, I weeped on My Knees a Thousand Years…And Begged in My Own Shame for This Moment of LIGHT…That I could Prove My Redemption…to My Father…not in words of Emptiness But with My Actions of Love for his GRACE….and Nothing Less…
No Mountians of Gold or Rewards of Splendor…But OF WORTHINESS…in actions and Deeds for His LOVE….
I know ( Who ) and ( What I AM )…in the LORD….I am not here to Proclaim My Greatness…or Worth to this World…
I am HERE to Prove My Self Worth to His Love…
Not to make My Life a Better Place…But to make this World a Better Place…
I am Blessed to Be Beaten and TORCHIERED IN HIS NAME…for THE EVERLASTING TRUTH and RIGHTEOUSNESS OF IS LIGHT…
GOOD and EVIL are not words…They are the TRUTH of ALL THAT IS …
WHO AMONG YOU….CAN PROCLAIM….TO WALK IN THE PURE BRIGHTNESS OF HIS GLORY…
IF YOU CONTINUE TO ROLL IN THE MUDD OF LIES WITH OTHERS…?…
For I saw the ONLY REFLECTION in the WATER OF LIFE THAT MATTERED… IS MY OWN…
Not those of Others and What they were or were not doing in the Lies they FEED ME…
But of ME and What I WAS DOING…TO PROVE MY LOVE…IN MY WORKS…
FOR THE GRACE OF HIS WISDOM AND TRUST IN ME…
I WLL NEVER AGAIN DRINK FROM THE CUP OF BITTERNESS… HATRED… AND LIES WITH LUST…SERVED TO ME…IN SHAME…
I WILL NOT BARE THE SHAME OF ANYONE’S LIES…
THE TRUTH HAS MADE ME FREE…..
KNOW THIS IN YOUR HEART…NO SPIRIT IS BETTER THEN THE ONE BESIDE HIM…
YOUR CHOICES ( ARE ) WHAT MAKE THE DIFFERENCE IN YOU…
TO ACCEPT A GIFT… THAT HAS ALWAYS BEEN FREE…