I want People to understand something…Spiritualism IS 100% REAL and so are the POWER’S…Beyond Anything you can Imagine….The Problem is no One can see them…
And the Worse Problem…IS I SEE THEM ALL…
The Most Frightening Part is that most think they are part of GODS Force…But the Reality is they are Being SUCKERED BY LIES OF THE FALLEN…I Always warn EVERYONE…Do not trade your Soul for a Hand Full of Magic Beans…1 Step into Darkness Takes 10,000 to get Back out…
and into the Light……This is FACT……
The Truth isss…We can all Talk a Good Game…But when it comes Time to Define Your-Self in The Light …It’s a Whole New Step into A Unknown Realm of Existence…and I AM STRUGGLING in this Next Level Spiritualistic Step…and I am trying to Identify…What Emotion it is…???….It doesn’t seem like Fear I know it isn’t Doubt…But My Heart…has that Butterfly feeling and I can’t seem to Push it Away……….
My Faith in ( ALL ) is TOTAL…IN this Promise to Make ME FREE and I Do Not Doubt or Fear it for ANYTHING…
So I ask my Spiritual Brother To Help ME find some Wisdom…in this Place I have found Myself…..I would say he is a Guide but I think Brother is a Better Term…He is Funny,and witty,with a touch of Sarcasm and Always 99.8% right…lol….(.2) is for the sarcasm..but he always makes me Laugh in Times when My Heart is Heavy…
And He Brought this Memory of Jimmy back to My Heart…
I want you to understand who I am..as A Person…My Life is Not about Money…it is about Destiny…and in this direction unfortunately..it takes Money to accomplish My mission of Redemption into the Next Spiritual Step…I do not need just a Better Life…I need a Better World for ALL of US…To have a Better Life…in a Better World…?…I ask for more then the rest and less then the Most…I AM 100+10 Percent Spiritual…not Perfect…Just Perfectly Honest….I do not Lie,Cheat,or Steal from anyone on this Planet…nor am I wearing a Halo of Perfection…Mine is bent and Twisted But I keep straighten the kinks out.. to be a better Person everyday…I stand by My Integrity and Morals… and those I associate with must do the same…or we will part company and I will wish you the Best…Because you are the Company you Keep……ANYONE…and EVERYONE…that Shines Above the Rest in Honesty…will become My Personal Friend…with a Lifetime of Blessings I am not afraid to Share with a Good Heart…
Many Years ago I met a Veteran..at the Milwaukee VA…He was a Great Guy and in Good Spirits we played cards went to the chapel for prayer and hung out together…We exchange addresses and numbers and he made a weird comment I didn’t understand at the Time…( he said well if we don’t meet again…it was Great knowing you)…I said hey you never know maybe I’ll be headed in your direction or just come and help out at your Place for free meals or until your wife kicks me out…lol… and we both Laughed…He had a wife and several kids that crowded into his Hospital room and they all were excited to see each other and he would leave to go stay at a hotel room while they visited from out of State..I met them for a little bit but didn’t want too…ahhh steal their golden time together..you know…even though I really did enjoy being with them.. just a great Wife and kids…Very Nice Family…after they left he would tell me about swimming with his family at the hotel and the nice meals and the few things they could find to do..etc…He never complained once or told me of his illness or why he was there…But when I saw his wife and children crying with him as I glanced in his room..trying not to be intrusive…it was obviously More then just missing or leaving His visit in this teary goodbye sobbing was going on…So I waited till he came out of his room..and Said Whats Happening JIMMY( I think his name was actually Jim but he was on a locked ward with me and I always said to him… did you Jimmy the Lock…and we laughed and it Stuck..)( He was on a locked Rehab ward with me because back then they did not have a Place to put him that could monitor him 24-7 )……..I was thinking Bills or travel..you Know…and He said Well they are taking it pretty hard…..I said taking what hard…Come On Spit it out we are friends..I LIKE YOU… Maybe some how I can help…He said well I doubt it…………I said WHAT..WHAT IS GOING ON….He said well I only have 2 weeks or so left…I said OHH Good… then your Treatment is over and you can go Home…He Said NO CLINT…I’M NEVER GOING HOME AGAIN..I AM GOING TO DIE HERE…..I just Kinda…gulped…and my eyes started filling…I said what in the hell are you talking about…He had a Very Deadly and Painful form of Cancer…I said get a second opinion and He said I have had 10 opinions…and unfortunately they are ALL the Same…I said European treatment and a bunch of suggestions…and he said Yeah its all no Good Buddy….I told Him I have to use the Bathroom and went in there and Cried….I never met another Man in My Whole life that showed so much Strength and Integrity in My entire Life and he never complained one time…I think he ask for a pill one time…Because I made the Joke got any extras…I saw him turn down pills many times..and the Nurse saying You know you can have more of these if you ask…???…He said No I have to Maintain..Outside his room were tables in a day room..and He asked will you do me a favor…I said Sure anything what do you need..He said when My wife and Kids come can you keep an eye on me and Make sure I do alright if its Not to Much…I said of course No Problem..at all…I was very Proud he chose me to spend his time with..Just…Really Hit My Heart Hard…and I surely didn’t want my sadness to make him feel worse…Jimmy HONORED me that he thought My opinion meant something to him……It wasn’t long after…he was confined to a bed…I spent most of my time in his room…and cried allot when I left it…Just an Amazing Man…We talked Allot about Spiritualism and He told me how much he would miss his Wife and Kids…I remember how stupid I felt sharing my Stupid problems with A Man that became a HERO to my Heart…Before His Wife came the last time…Jimmy asked me to prop him up.. and He would SAY time to Put on MY Game Face…moaning in agony as I helped him sit up slowly and asking Me… How do I look..???..I said you look Great Jimmy…and He did hiding the severe Pain He was in..from his Family…and he was in Allot of Pain and could barely move..without searing Pain…I remember the kids came in and jumped on him in the bed..and seeing him wince…and the Love he had for His Children as his wife would see his eyes and tell them not to jump on him with there excitement… When his time became very short…and He Told his Wife do not come back here…and she said of course I’m coming Back here..He said NO YOUR NOT..!….He said Remember the good Times we shared and the Love I have Always Had for you and the kids…I don’t want YOU or the CHILDREN to see This Anymore……And I want you to find a Good Man again..She said Never I don’t want another Man,,, and he Made her Promise for their Kids Sake…she would remarry if she met the right Guy for their Kids..( That Jimmy was a Smart Guy…always thinking of way to convince you for someone…)…….HE WAS THE PUREST BRAVERY IN A MAN.. I HAVE EVER MET OR SEEN…EVER…..I spoke with his wife a little when he would spend time alone with the Kids one on one time…and she would give them this time together..we talked and I consoled her tears…They were very much in LOVE…and really thought out the final Time and how important the Children’s quality time with their Father was…They left and I waited a while…and he said come in here….. I said how did it go…He said I almost cried when..Jake( his son)(and Daughter Sarah) jumped on him and were giving him Hugs…How DID I DO…???…I said you DID AMAZING…..JIM…He said do you think the Kids Noticed…I said no I don’t think sooo..their kids you know…He said Good that’s important to me…What about Laura(his wife)…I said yeah I think she saw a little bit…He said Yeah I thought so too…But I did the BEST I COULD…I said you did A Great Job Jimmy I’m really Proud of YOU…He said that means something to Me Clint…Now help me lay down…and Tears Streamed from eyes as we moved him back onto His side…He said I need sleep now…again I went and Broke down…wondering if it was the pain or never seeing his family again….I Spent allot of time with him and we Talked about Spiritualism and about the silly projects we both had.. …3 days after the last visit from his family…Jimmy Passed away…I remember the last day…. He said you have to leave now….I knew what that Meant…and I went and Broke down…I asked the Nurse to please keep an eye on him he wasn’t doing so well…and I went and Laid in My Room Praying that He would Be OK some how…The nurse knocked on My door a few hours later that day…and said I just wanted to let you know…That Jimmy Past..I know you Guys were close friends…I said I Thank God that Jimmy has found Peace… choking on the words…..I kept in touch with Laura at a distance …but didn’t want to be a Salty reminder of the hardest moments anyone could possible have…She did find someone a few Years Later and I congratulated her…but never got a reply..and didn’t push it…But was happy for her…I’m not sure if I read it.. but I remember she had commented how much he loved their kids some where maybe in the wedding announcements….And I just Knew…JIMMY…had an influence on this….BLESS HIS HEART AND SOUL FOR ETERNITY…
The reason for this Reflection is that I swore in My Heart that I would never watch A MAN of MEN die spending his last days displaced in a Hospital or Hotel room…So I decided I would fix my homes here and let Veterans stay here with there families for what ever they could afford or not afford…with a few jet skis and atv’s speed boat..etc…nothing new but all working and available to give them the Special Moments and RESPECT with DIGNITY to have Quality Home time with their Loved Ones before they were Gone and Maybe find Peace in their Hearts and a Few Good Memories to leave their wives and Children..with….
I cannot recover from this much Financial damage here…. So I must sell My Property Consolidate and Restructure and pack up as much as I can in a New Direction..
649 Children Die an Hour from Starvation not a day not a week…AN HOUR…
So in the Light of this… I will begin a new Journey to Move My Life into this Direction to Help the Starving Children of this World…